Yes, somehow it happened after all: in love with an older man. What do I love so much about this man? Well, it comes down mainly to the following aspects:

- he simply looks incredibly good for his age
- with this man I just feel incredibly safe and secure
- every time we meet is a total dream
- I have to think about this man 24 hours a day!

I could just gush about him every day. The age difference between us is about 15 years. And that very point worries me in turn. Can a relationship like this really work? Will it all just stay a brief dream? My head is full of so many thoughts. I should actually be happy. How can I get these nagging thoughts out of my head?

In love with an older man

In love with an older man and totally blocked in everyday life

In love with an older man and therefore completely unable to perform at my best. As I've already hinted, I'm totally happy with this man, and at the same time I'm plagued by all these thoughts. All of this adds up to a rather unfortunate combination. I have an important and, above all, very responsible job in finance. But right now I'm definitely slipping a little. I'm simply in love, and that is buzzing around in my head all the time, or more precisely, this man is buzzing around in my head all the time. Things in bed are going pretty well too. Actually too well. That's another point that blocks my head in everyday life. I sit over the insurance contracts and in my thoughts I'm in bed with my partner. It sounds absurd, but it's still the reality. It's really very hard for me to just shake off these thoughts.

In love with an older man and caught between two stools

In love with an older man

As a young woman of just 19, I think about my parents all the time. What would they say if I came home with such an old man? Of course he isn't really old, but compared to me he is. How others see me matters a lot to me. I simply can't be as relaxed about this as some other people. Some people would just tell themselves that it doesn't matter what other people say. My parents are really very conservative. It would be even worse if I introduced them to a woman. That would practically mean the end of the world. In the end, I will have to make a decision. Keep the relationship secret and live with a guilty conscience? Or bite the bullet after all and tell the truth?